Are Motherhood Burnouts a thing? Cause I might be going through one. This week has just been so exhausting. It could be that I’m starting to feel the effects of staying inside for weeks and it is taking its toll. But it might also be more, I think.
On top of staying indoors for who knows how long, my little ones have been going through a bit of a sleep regression. I’ve been trying to figure out a schedule for them, but their naps have been so random and short. They’ve also been difficult to put down for naps and bedtime.
Less naps or shorter naps means less time for myself, which is why I feel like I might burnout. I know that sounds selfish because I’m a mom now so I shouldn’t even have any time for myself or whatever. But the moments I have to myself are important for me as a mother. They give me a second to breathe so I can get ready for the next round.
Chasing around two adventurous baby boys is not easy. They are full of energy every second they are awake and they want nothing but someone’s (usually me) attention. And I have no problem running around after them or playing with them. But, I still need those moments to myself so I can do those things. So I can be prepared mentally, emotionally, and physically.
But this week . . . those moments to myself seemed impossible. Every time I thought I could finally breathe and relax, they would wake up seconds later and it’s back on the mat. You’d think I’m being metaphorical but they really do enjoy crawling on me whenever I sit down with them.
The difficulties of this week has really opened my eyes to several things. The first thing is that it is HARD being a mom. It is life draining to be completely honest. I have breakdowns all the time! Even more than I did before! And there’s no break. When your child is crying and you feel tired to your bones, you don’t have the choice to rest. You have to get up. You have to move. And you have to find a way to soothe them.
The second thing is that despite how difficult being a mother can be, it is still the most rewarding thing I could ever do. I might burnout by the end of this week, but I know that I’ll just relight my flame when I do. Because I love my kids and I’d give up every part of myself if that meant they could be happy. All the anxiety, depression, and self-doubt I feel about being a mother goes away the instant they smile or laugh or say “mama.” They make life worth living. My boys are always worth it.
The last thing I’ve realized, and I hate that it’s taken me this long to notice, is that I could not do this alone. My husband has been my rock. I’ve had two crippling migraines in the last four days (probably from stress, exhaustion, the weather, or all of the above) and several breakdowns in the last week and my husband did so much to make sure I was okay. He took care of the boys so I could go to sleep early or take naps. He constantly fed me or made sure I drank water. I am eternally grateful to him.
My sister was also a huge help. She took care of one of the boys one night when I had a migraine and I know that made things a thousand times easier for my husband while he let me sleep. I could not be the best mother I can be without them.
I thought my pregnancy journey would be the hardest part about being a mother, and boy was I dramatically wrong. Like what was I thinking? This motherhood burnout is the hardest thing by far. And I know there will be more weeks like this in the future, but at least I’m not alone. I have help. I also love my boys more than anything. So even when I feel a burnout coming on, I’ll just keep finding ways to rekindle my fire.
Thank you for reading today’s blog! Also thank you for allowing me a short break to just decompress from all that has been going on in my life. With everything happening in the world, self-care is super important right now as well as being kind and gentle to ourselves and each other.
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